I was born under the sign of Cancer, in the year 1951, in the town of
Yakima, Washington. I was the only child of older parents, lived a
quite idyllic life through childhood and adolescence. My parents
operated a grocery store and my paternal grandmother lived with us.
Although my family was not religious-churchgoing, I seemed to be
immersed in signs about my future path from earliest childhood. My
father was a student of power of the human mind. I learned early on,
at his knee, about the premise that we can choose and create our own
reality.
From earliest childhood, I remember being
driven by two objectives - to reconnect with my Creator, and to attain
enlightenment, or personal mastery. I, being a Cancer, have always had
the desire to help others in some way. I also always been compelled,
sooner or later, to heed my intuitions, gut feelings. Sometimes I felt
like those gut feelings were leading me upon a merry chase to nowhere.
In retrospect, now I can see how divinely perfect it all was.
I left home in Yakima at 18, to attend Lutheran teachers college. I
was planning to major in Music Education. I spent my freshman year at
Concordia College in Portland, Oregon. My desire be some place besides
the Northwest USA, and a better music program led me to Concordia
College in River Forest, Illinois, a Chicago suburb. I completed my
Junior year, then had my crisis of faith. I realized that I simply was
not teacher material, and began having serious issues with the
prevailing religious doctrine. I left college and began a life on my
own in Chicago.
I made my break with Christianity when I
entered into a friendship with a Hare Krishna devotee. This religion
felt good, compared to the coldness of the Christian community I had
come from. I asked God to send me a sign if I were really going to go
to hell for embracing this blue-faced god, Krishna. No sign came, no
lightning bolt turned me into a cinder block. I took this fork in the
path for a time.
Interestingly enough, I met a
Scientologist gentleman at the local Hare Krishna Temple - another fork
in the path. I ended up marrying him, divorcing him, but remaining in
the Church of Scientology for the next 12 years or so. There I learned
a lot more about conscious reality creation and how the universe works.
In the Spring of 1980, I woke up one day and decided it was time to go
home, back to the Northwest. All fell In place rather quickly, and
within a couple of weeks, I was back in Yakima with my 16 month old
daughter, Jazmine, and my dog. We arrived just in time to catch Mt.
St. Helens’ big blow up. I relocated to Portland, Oregon because of
job availability. I became a part-time staff member at the local
Church of Scientology. I entered into a relationship with another
Scientologist gentleman, had another daughter, Stefanie, in 1984.
Another fork on the path emerged when the Church of Scientology kicked
me out.
I spent about a year in spiritual oblivion, not sure at all how I felt
about being kicked off the “Bridge to Total Freedom”. I spent most of
my time and energy on my business and raising my daughters. I have
always been very aware that I am a spiritual being, though, and having
nothing to believe in was very difficult. Next I was led to Nichiren
Shoshu Buddhism - by a person on the street who gave me a card bearing
the chant “Nam Myoho Renge Kyo”.
This practice was quite to my liking for a while. It embraced both the
need for connection with God and manifestation in the physical
universe. It was simple, not overloaded with rules and doctrines - do
the chant and everything else takes care of itself. And so it did."
In 1989 I rented a house from a woman who was a psychic and channel,
and embarked on the path of ascension - the path that has led to where
I am now. I learned about personal ascension/mastery as well as the
planetary ascension we are now undergoing. I learned much more about
how the Universe actually works and how we manifest our own reality,
either consciously or by default. I was always intuitive but never
actually psychic. In 1992, I opened to the gifts of clairvoyance,
clairaudience, clairsentience, all at once and in an instant. I found
myself talking to various Higher Beings directly.
Ahhh, my wildest dream come true, or was it?
The whole thing took a bit of getting used to. I asked a lot of
questions, thousands of them, to the Higher Beings in question. I put
myself through a system of checks to prove that I was not losing my
mind. I did a lot of practicing with my new abilities and waited for
the confirmations to come back. They did come, are still coming, as I
receive validations from others about the info I received in my early
channelings. The down side was that seeing and hearing Spirit did not
solve all my life problems, as I expected it might. It helps if one is
actually applies what is being told, rather than simply it reflecting
upon it.
The learning to apply was my next step. I
had eventually come under the mentorship of Archangel Michael, but I
was not happy. I was miserable, my earth life in a shambles. I had
been given so many gifts, and I felt like I had utterly failed to serve
Spirit. In 1997 I asked Michael and the other Higher Beings to please
show me how to live in unconditional love. I asked them to teach me
how to walk this earth as the master I had always wanted to be, and how
to be of full service on this Earth plane. Shortly after this request,
I was given by Michael the heart, sword, rainbows and name of the Love
and
Empowerment logo - the symbol of my work. Some months
later, in meditation, a dragon gifted me with a Rainbow energy. I saw
it flowing from my fingertips. It would be a while down the road
before I understood the significance of both the Logo and the Rainbow
energy.
The next three-four years were probably the
most challenging of my earth life. I began an intense campaign to rid
myself of fear, and to move beyond judgment. I was determined to fully
understand and apply the concept of unconditional love. Through these
four years, everything that I feared, everything that I resisted,
manifested into my life. I had to get up close and personal with many
of my worst case scenarios. I had to face the potential loss of
everything and everyone near and dear to me. My technique was actually
simple. Whenever I felt the constricted energies of fear creeping up,
I would talk myself out of it, put another thought there. I would ask
myself “How can I act out of love in this situation? How can I look at
this from another viewpoint?” I frequently asked Spirit for help, but
I knew this was my project, I had to do it or not do it on my own.
The no fear campaign was very difficult, but the rewards were so
unbelievably great. For all my studies, my ability to channel and all,
the thing that cracked my case was the no fear campaign. Fear is a
lower frequency energy, love is a higher one. They cannot dwell in the
same space. If one wants to know love, one must release the
preponderance of fear. There is no other way. As I released more fear
energy, I became stronger, more confident, more in my own power. In
2001, I got on the internet, and the first Love and Empowerment website
came to be. In 2002, I actually created the Love and Empowerment logo
that I had been given by Michael with digital art software.
Also in 2002, I was instructed by the Archangel Raphael in use of the
Rainbow energies I had been given. My future path began to take shape.
Eva and I began working together. Rainbow Energy Alchemy was born.
2002 was a landmark year for me, personally, as well. I shattered my
personal veil, literally woke up in the morning knowing that I was not
separate from God, not separate from anything at all. I knew the
meaning, at last, of unconditional love. The Archangel Metatron became
the guiding force behind the Rainbow work, and life is good, very good.
These days I live in a house in the north of Portland, Oregon, very
close to the Columbia River. I call it Metatron’s house because of the
way it just appeared in Divine flow. I share the house with my two
daughters, one significant-other, one granddaughter and two dogs. The
most of my time is spent on the work of Love and Empowerment. There is
not much fear left in my being, and I love my life. Metatron and the
higher realms continue to bring many gifts, and I am here to serve. I
would love to share this glorious state of being with each and every
person on the planet. I am content and joyous to be in the now,
following my inner direction. Life unfolds in Divine Time and
perfection.
